Following a new fork in the road...

You know when you let love pass you by...

It's like that with "High School Sweetheart".

How do you explain still being in love with someone you fell in love with 18 years ago? And he feeling the same way (despite the fact that he is married with 2 kids)

Why have we remained close friends for 18 years.

Why is he the only man that knows everything about me, including the fact that we could have a 16 year old child together by now...

Why is he the man I push away because I don't trust myself near him? Why is he the only man I want close to me right now?

L x

Was it the fact that I have (accidentally) been off my anti-anxiety medication for 6 days now?

Was it the "date" last night with a man from "the other place" that wasn't what I want or need?

Was it the 2 "Chick-Flick" DVD's that made me think far more than Chick Flicks should?

I don't know why, but as of about ten minutes ago, I can see far more clearly about the things that I don't want.

Hopefully that gets me half a step closer to the things I do...


I want love...

To love another and be loved by another.

First step, I have to learn to love me...


L x

Might as well join them!!

No, I wont be blogging (yet....) but wanted to keep an eye on all the going's on of my lovely friends!!

L xx

PS They have way cool smiley's over here...might have to re-consider the fact that I don't use them!